This is a reference list of my videos, online and off. Some of these videos are currently unavailable.

Videos By Fabella
Last updated: 03/10/08. Check my songvids tag for an always up to date source. Also, many of my videos are now at IMEEM, a streaming video site much like the infamous youtube.com (imeem has better video quality). Vidlets are not included in this list.

( Online, offline, and somewhere between... )

... or maybe pretend to like me.

the what i like about you meme | my thread

My first time at one of these things. I'm not nervous, I swear.

For future reference?



Civil Twilight - Human

I absolutely have to vid this song. It will be my epic John Sheppard (Stargate Atlantis) video. I already see the video in my head. Heavy Mckay/Sheppard undertones, but ultimately a character video. I see this one beautiful effect that I will attempt. Seriously, it's already vidded, waiting for me to produce it. And yet, I have no time to do it right now. Dammit. I've lost all the love I have for my current projects. Blah.

Happy Birthday, phaballa! I adore you and everything about you and hope you eat so much cake you throw up. These are GOOD things. :)

I'm cutting this because I love you, but it's just a basic episode reaction to what is going on before the first commercial break.

( cut cut cut SUPERNATURAL SPOILERS cut cut cut )

My vid, and six wonderful others, have now been posted to spn_gleeweek.

Mine is here

"I, Alone" by Live, 1:44, Youtube or Megaupload, Supernatural, something meant to be a bit gleeful and a bit bleak, can been seen to have Sam/Ruby and Sam/Dean, but imho, these relationships can be seen as platonic in the video just as easily. Comments better there than here just to keep things in one place, and please check out the videos by other artists. It's been a great round of gleeweek. :)

...on that whole Open Source Boob Project post (I'm not even going to link it).

At one point, it was mentioned that the women at the con were forced to participate whether they wanted to or not, and by that, I mean the red/green buttons that either gave the go-head for this skeeze to touch their breasts or told him they were not okay with it. My problem with this is that these women are put into these positions, they have to make a choice and walk around and be judged by these choices, by their answer, when THE QUESTION SHOULD NEVER BE ASKED.

To put this into context of what I am upset about, I'll tell you now that I've had my fair share of one-night stands and I've also enjoyed a monogamous relationship, so my issues are not 'don't let random guys touch your boobs!' If you want random boob touches, cool, but you should have the right to offer before demands are made on you.

My issue is that this whole event is such concentrated example of a woman's every day life. Men judge us, and women judge each other, for our answers to questions that are being asked of our bodies and of our lives. I have lost friends because their boyfriends/husbands hit on me, I left a highschool because no one would believe me that my teacher was sexually harassing me and those that knew what was going on didn't want to make waves because they were, and I quote 'new to the school', I was told that a long sleeve shirt was not acceptable to wear because it was form-fitting, and OMG, actually touched my sides and showed that I have curves. My ass was commented on yesterday, and naturally, I wore those jeans for just that purpose right? Because I wanted my ass commented on. And yesterday? I was asked out three different times by three different men, and two out of three thought I was a bitch for saying no and expressed that opinion loudly. One of them went so far as trying to convince me for almost a half-an-hour while I was trying to do my job. I wear a fake name-tag at work to avoid giving these guys any piece of me. To be fair, a woman I was not at all attracted to asked me out a few months ago, and she wasn't too happy with my answer either, but she was not nearly as aggressive about it. I get really tired of being put in the position I didn't ask for, to be the bad one because I say no. Or the slut when I say yes.

So if I had been at that convention, I would have been miserable. Green says yes, Red says no, and once more, I am backed into a corner when I haven't offered to put myself there.

UGH. HOT BUTTON HAS BEEN PRESSED.

Hours worked this week: 51
Days left in pay period: 2
Next Day Off: Unknown

Yeah, all projects are on the burner, I am exhausted. I'm sad about that, despite the hard earned money rolling in (tips! yay tips!) because I really wanted to work on the Gossip Girl video. And there may or may not be this Madonna/Britney video that will seriously take a year to make with all the frame-by-frame editing involved, and maybe an Entourage video? Maybe. I've thought about these videos with my ipod turned up, and my eyes glazed over on the way to and from work this past, um, when was my last day off? Hmm. For the past while now, and I'd love to be able to sit down and actually work on them, but the most I can bring myself to do is clip. I need that sort of mind-numbing thought-not-required stuff right now after work.

I'm just glad I have a job, and that I am able to acquire so many hours. With the situation the US economy is in, I'm very lucky.

My hair is now black, blond, and red. It's awesome, and I love it, but wow, it is messy.

I'm posting this for personal reference, but who knows, it might come in handy for a few of you as well.

Ways and ways to remove hair dye from skin.

... I did mention it was messy. My bathroom will never be the same. If I don't hate it in a week, and I can manage a photo of myself where I don't look like a fool, I'll show you guys. I'm trying to allow myself to be photographed more these days, because there is seriously a six year gap in photographs of me. My mom moans at me around the holidays about stuff like that.

This is how it goes:

"I need more photos for the walls."

"Who even WANTS to see the drunken prom date on the wall?"

"When you were little, you loved having your photo taken. All I have are photos of you as a kid."

"When I was little, I didn't care that I looked like a drunken seven year old prom date."

Or something close to that.

*

I am vidding. Again. Or, maybe the better word is still? I don't know at this point. I keep jumping into these projects with due dates. Why do I do this to myself? I'm wishing I hadn't signed up for my latest one, because the due date is fast approaching, and I haven't even *started* and wow, what a panic attack that is. Luckily the guideline calls for what I would call a vidlet, and all my clipping is already done for the fandom, so if I can just do about ten seconds a day, I should be fine. That's harder than it sounds for me. Some days I vid in negative seconds, I shit you not. What a state of mind those days turn out to hold.

After that? I'm definitely going to finish my Gossip Girl video. It's staring at me accusingly right now.

*

In conclusion, ( PATRICK STUMPH ) is a total hotass. When I haven't been busy killing my hair, I've been busy ogling. HIS PERFECT FACE. If he weren't so awesome, I would feel utterly shallow. I don't know what else to say. There can be only gawking.

I missed all the recent Jared & Jensen activity from the recent convention (conventions? is it plural now?), because I'm a tool, and I've been too busy to keep up with my friends list.

...

.... Did I actually let work trump J2? Seriously? I lose at priorities.

Videos, Pics, and Transcripts are all out there floating somewhere, right?

Imagine the joy it would bring you to go through all that impossible joy again under the guise of taking pity on me and giving me links. Wouldn't you like that? Wouldn't that just be swell?

ETA: I still lose, but you guys are for the win.

I happened to be surfing imeem, and...

There is already a really good video to MCR's Teenagers. It is here, by giandujakiss and it is also multifandom and made of awesome. I highly recommend it.

*head/desk*

Song suggestions which portray a similar theme (teenagers, rebellious a little, but not necessarily dark, maybe even a little hopeful)? It was sort of going to be my VVC vid, so. Yeah, I really need to learn to do in-depth searches when I get an idea. I still really want to do the eighties teen movie theme, but unless I find the right song, I'm gonna axe it.

No more posting today, unless I need an organ donor or something, I swear.

*crosses heart*

ETA: Hmm. So this might actually be a good thing. I think my idea may have... narrowed a little. Still eighties themed, but more exclusively female in nature.

So, has anyone actually watched Fall Out Boy's newest dvd yet? I'm waiting eagerly for commentary and I can't find anything anywhere. I went to buy it myself, but the music store on my block didn't have it, and I don't feel like hopping a bus to the mall. I'm dead set on being lazy today. I was shocked I managed to drag myself out of the house.

I did nab an Iggy Pop cd for wicked cheap, though. This whole saving up for a video camera thing? Not so much happening until my job with tips starts up next month.

One of my upcoming video projects needs your help.

Theme: Eighties Teen Movie (multifandom, of course)
Song: Teenagers by My Chemical Romance

I have an idea of a quite a few movies that I'll want to include, but I'm interested in what you guys think would be absolutely must-haves in a vid of that type. You can list off several, or repeat answers already given. I've never done multifandom before, so, yeah, outside input would be *awesome*.

*freaks out*

Video Details

Title: Chasing Arizona
Song: "Meds" by Placebo
Video Artist: Fabella (wistful_fever)
Summary: Pete is in love with his best friend. Life is great. Only... his best friend isn't real. FOB, Pete/Patrick, Alternate Universe.
Fandom: BandSlash (Real Person), Fall Out Boy
Length: 2:41
Format: xvid avi

Warnings: Real Person implies real people are involved. If that's not your cup of tea? No problem, just don't download it.

Disclaimer: THIS IS ALL A LIE.

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Quality is directly related to size, though it's never great with RPS. If you have problems playing it, try the VLC Media Player. It's free, fast, and awesome.

Links Last Updated: 4/06/08

( Vidding Notes )

Feedback puts a smile on my face.

How about I do something completely unusual, and whine about vidding? /sarcasm

I'm working on the final treatments for another video. I'm as shocked as you are. This one hasn't even taken me a month. Three weeks, I think, if you don't count clipping.

And now my gut is churning. It's an RPS video, and the subject matter was a bit difficult to pull off considering the source, and that's half my problem right there. It's a concept vid, AU, and I'm not positive it will shine for anyone but me. And hey, I'm okay with that. I make videos that I want to see. That doesn't mean I don't hope others will like it as well and then send me a million comments, but that's the greedy-human part of me that is honestly NEVER satisfied. At this point I mostly ignore that side of me and focus on the side that is satisfied by a completed project, because otherwise, I'd never make half the videos I do.

I tried some new techniques with this one, and to be honest, the entire video has a weird feel. A little art house-y. Nothing wrong with that, I guess, but I always freak out when I try something I never have. I may post it tonight when I get back from work. It depends on how the audio tooling goes. I'm not sure I like what I've done with the song. So unless that gets figured out, I may sit on the video forever.

And? New icon. It's not my default yet, but it may work its way up there. Can you guess who is in the new vid?

Now I have to go get hit on by the bus driver. Seriously. The things I do to get to work.

I should really get a license.

Despite everything, Britney played a huge part in my gay. I think I daydreamed a different "Baby One More Time" in at least three different math classes.

So. Madonna. Britney. In Love.

Come over here, I've got something to show ya.



Was that not the hottest video of its time? *sighs dreamily* I sort of, um, wonder if there's an Madonna/Britney fic out there. I mean, it's so wrong, and yet... Yes, please.

ETA: I know everyone in the world has seen this, and a million times at that, but wow, Madonna is the hottest groom of two brides in the world EVER.

You know what really kills me about this guy? What convinced me, in the end, to adore him? He doesn't stand out from the crowd because he's doing crazy things or working the tabloids. He stands out for being real. And not ours. He belongs to himself. He's not your average lead singer in a popular band, that's for sure. He'll get up on stage and swagger with the best of them, but his hat brim has become something of a metaphor to me, because if you ever get a good look at his face during a performance, there's a certain barrier there. We only get the barest glimpse of his soul, and that's usually while he's at the microphone. He's singing, and as he's singing, he's telling us, "I will give you this gift because it was given to me, but that is as far as it goes, I will let you see only so much of me, let you in only so far, before I turn you away."

I can think of nothing better to illustrate this part of Patrick's persona than him singing Golden. If you like it, youtube for more versions, because it's different every time, and not just whether he plays it by guitar or piano.



Nothing attracts me like a little mystery.

keepaofthecheez thinks Dean was kind of a geek as a kid, too.

And, word for word, my reply:

"I totally see Dean as the kid in my class who used to do those awful Ace Ventura (Pet Detective) impressions, and at first it was really cool, but he kept doing it long after we all thought it was awesome, and also, he wore zebra print pants, with elastic ankles. I shit you not, this is what he will always be remembered for, at least to me.

Um, not that Dean would wear zebra print pants. Oh, wait, yeah, in my head, ten year old Dean would totally think they were awesome."

Because, seriously, that is my Dean. I don't know why I feel this way. I just do. I'm not saying I didn't briefly nurse a crush for this zebra-pants wearing pet detective lover... but that's another story.

Dean was a total king in his own head, and truly didn't get when he weirded people out, but until about age sixteen, everyone else thought he was kind of embarrassing to be around for any length of time.

ETA

The only time young!Dean is really embarrassed by his geekness is when Sammy catches him shaking his ass and rocking out to Rick Astley's, Never Gonna Give You Up.


He thought he had the apartment to himself. Or he would have been wearing more than socks. And listening, to, like, Kiss or something.

Ah, the new vid smell. *inhales*

Video Details

Title: Your Own Personal Co-Dependent Wet Dream
Song: "Personal Jesus" by Depeche Mode
Video Artist: Fabella (wistful_fever)
Summary: The Cult of Sam. Bonnie to your Clyde. Sam/Dean, Sam POV, a bit dark. Made for Yourlibrarian, who won me at the Sweet Charity auction.
Fandom: Supernatural, 1x01-3x12
Length: 3:15
Format: xvid avi

Warnings: Implied Incest, Slash (M/M)

Disclaimer: No copyright infringement is intended.

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Links Last Updated: 3/19/08

( Vidding Notes )

Feedback is more than desired, it's appreciated.

the bad, and the perspective:

I live in a relatively quiet neighborhood. Vermont is a safe place to live, right?

A woman was raped on my street this week. I keep wondering about noises that I heard. Nothing specific, just a clanging sound here, or a slosh of tires there, and me rolling over to go back to sleep. Minding my own business. I'm sleeping, or watching Adult Swim maybe, or vidding, or reading, something, and this woman is suffering a few houses down. I don't know what time it happened, only that it happened at night. I wish someone had been paying attention.

She's fifty years old. The guy is still out there. How well can she be sleeping?


the stuff that is no longer the end of the world:

I am in the final stretch of finishing this video. I need to put down about six more clips, and tweak the timing on a few others, do some color editing, and I think that's probably going to be the end of it. These videos tend to take on a mind of their own, so I hope the bidder likes it.

And, then, after all the compressing and formatting and uploading, I'm going to watch videos by other people, where I put in no effort AT ALL, and try to get through my backlog of owed feedback. Maybe. If I'm not too lazy. I can get very lazy after finishing a video.